Damaged Lyrics

yet again the fire has started, tho this time i ain't letting it go down and burn out, cause ive had moments where i was left standing by myself, looking for a hand out, not cause i couldnt stand but cause doubt, had crept in after having to wake up daily to a repeated scenario that i wasnt able to change what had happened and learning lesson were there to stay, i didnt wanna label them failings for i got that strength, within the perspectives i choose or create, use or abuse to feel great, so i get through life, idm if im a bit late, either to the party, or the heavens gate, i just wanna be able to walk comfortably in a place i once or twice called my home, it aint perfect for now, but if i do get what i deserve im sure my worst moments i can turn from a curse to achieved statues, i own it, so im just glad that ive made an self approvement, made a movement, based off improvin, lifes not ones life but all of ours im crossing my fingers while pushing snow down a hill, an attempt to make some sort of snow ball affect when it starts small and gets bigger the more it rolls down the hill, for i gotta kill, every moment given, every second where im living, cause i definitely aint dying, call it a blaze of glory, while im fuked up stoned and still rocked up, to the after party... so heres a wording... life can be something worth holding onto, something to fight for, but i gosh dam gonna assume, theres gotta be somewhere or something better then where we are or what we get to receive, tho that aint me attempting to deceive just me wanting to believe, so before i close my own curtains i wanna leave, something behind for onez to follow or to be inspired by, probably not a good idea but here ill imply a try, an attempt, to become someone thats worth what ive spent on my life on earth, i got a lot of errors within myself i dont wanna let go off yet, not cause im afraid or struggling too but cause i wanna heal nurture the pain they cause, to become someone, i always thought i was special or basically just simply different to the people around me, the ones that surround me, with energy inspiration challenges and chance to fight, so as i write slash type im hoping my hands are blessed with light, for i see a lot of dark, so i stay sharp minded, and craft even when blinded, my heart im hoping it find its, rhythm, and beats for however long itd like too, but i understand the fight between life and death is true, theres this energy in the air, all ill face is despair, becoming nothing rare, but i fought fair so how is it that im still trapped within the square, i see i made mistakes but they werent completely mine, i see i aint the best, but what i do and put on the table was my best, i definitely dont love less, i got a heart but um yea it does compress, tho theres pressure to blame for that, but fuck man idk what im trying to say, i guess what im trying to say is, that lifes for me is one big mess, and ill probably never make it out of the mess but hey, i did and or am trying to, do my best, imma try love the address, of where im forced too live or caged within, fuck it imma even continue to grin even tho i may never win...