up to this point

aint gonna stunt yea i say im gonna go but fr what would i look like breaking are deal just mad because the world dont care loves to see me shed tears stand in the mirror wondering whos there panicing but sitting steal like a manaken thank god im holding hands with my friend again no telling were i would have landed at dint even want to anagine that life with out little raggedy anne playing everybody knows your beautiful and it runs deep clear to your funeral sorry for being in shambles gangsters sing the blues cant always be a feelingless animal but with you im handling it i have to admit i love you savagly mean that trying harder to not hear them streets calling me fuck apology after apology after awhile even i know sorry isnt gonbq be enough even love can get beat up sick of the same stuff im changung nit over night but sliwly getting right ive had alot of fails but always show up for the fight who would i be if i just roll over and died just taking it one day at a time they say theres a god maybe i just aint seeing the light or maybe with out you im really alone in this life thankful down my twisted road there were sign so not all of it was walking blind if you are loved trust the path yea its hard makes you mad lots of nights cursing god swearing this is the worst it got but you have lived through lose after lose brother and mom friends that are gone lost to the fight with a needle in they arm even my cliental i can see there also going through hell crazy how it makes you feel got you questioning are you really a blessing or are you responsible for all these messes that type of shit stop a mf from flexn not to mention im tired of getting dressed in i see my happiness is my children and bestfriend