samee dame

fearing pain I remain like most in life yet I stay trapped inside the same damn same damn same damn same man and it's killing me what's left of me man and it's killing me, what's left of this man? and trapped inside the same damn same damn is still the same damn same man and u do t know if I can call myself that maybe I'm not actually all that much of a man yet cause growing up I started to be taught right from wrong but was still the same damn , same kid who never got passed the point of his teen years because the lessons stopped coming in and I started running instead from everything that was Goin on in my new homes and stuck there is where I got left running but stuck at the mentality of just a teen and now I'm trapped inside the same damn same damn same man same man that the teen to whose long run began just to circle back to this same damn same damn man who doesn't know who or what I am I just remember time flew by sa I did as they did although I hated what it is but it's easy tp just get high to try to run from what right in front of us that we don't wanna see or deal with in the struggle of the moments why is it so easy so damn easy to repeat the vicious cycle like genetic disorder stuck on repeat drugs and alcohol numbing and using just to in the long run hurt ourselves mentally and physically almost beyond repair until we are completely bskc to the point of where we were when we began the marathon of the Sabathia from 14 to 33 still stuck in the mind of 5th e same damn same man Wit all I've got to live for why would I still live by the same old plan just to continue to be the same damn same man or kid who isn't the man that is stanfing here in the present when I was young I didn't plan man plan on being a single father pwho planned on getting over his mother to plan on really knowing my dad and yp plan on letting go of all this that would drive me Mas 5 years ago told myself that I needed t finally move on and heal not for me but for river if not before then his birth was the real tome.to finally mean it or else your gonna always be the same.damn same damn