missed call from death

It feels like my mind gone crazy lately death on mind got me dizzy trying to figure out how im gonna make it daily I know this pain will eventually fade but my world falling apart I could hardly stay But that’s risk love cost if I knew this earlier I wouldn’t have placed such high price now this world is truly gone and it’s up to me to not let loved ones down. Picking up all the pieces like a puzzle is fucking pathetic I can’t recover from this pain anymore Yeah my heart gone empty But as long as I’m breathing god gave me the chance to live, there ain’t no way I should be here honestly, and ironically it’s the truth. I done died to many times to count. Somehow I made it through the drought against all the doubts 🥺