emotional pain

I've been abused since the age eight it's a little to late to explain my fate. had my parents gone twenty four seven, sometimes I just prayed I would go to heaven. had my brothers watch me when the baby sitter wasn't around. played hide and go seek, but they never came to found. a couple months later, they tied me to a chair, I can't believe they would even dare, they turned off the lights. tried scaring me, as I'm screaming for them to stop, i had all the rights as it ignites. and on top of that I sat in that chair for hours, told my dad about it and he called me a coward. got a baseball thrown into my eye socket at the age five, came running inside sighed, said look what they did, as they come running behind me calling me a liar. I wanted to hide. I was sent to my room, wishing it was my tomb. at age eight that was the date I couldn't take. Became homicidal, suicidal. took my anger out on my Dad then tried killing myself. at this point herself has been broken. nothing was spoken. I sat in my room for years as I had awoken from all this depression, it was almost like a profession. soon after, my parents turned on me. said no one would ever love me for eternity. so I fell in love with my body and turned on everybody. my best friend since 7th grade, I called her in a rage said can I please move in, my dad just hurt me. but it was the house phone and he was listening, had me call her back & say I was lying. the next day a social worker at school saw my bruises on my legs, sent CPS to my house and of course I was forced to say it was all made up. just to switch me schools & continue this life when I'm 31 covering emotional pain with a bandaid.