better off dead

this is my mind covered in lyrics when you come to this spot in my brain that's where all the pain moved into it moved where trust should be damn and where trust was fear moved in i never opened the doors to anger but my doors were knocked off And the anxiety attacks got me pacing from one room to another if you wanna know what's inside my mind i wanna end with this constant pain and thoughts telling me that im better off dead and im fighting myself everyday to not give into darkness but every piece of light is sadly dimming I'm losing myself every night, dreaming for a perfect life without stress pain and anxiety i take pills to sleep but my system is stronger than them medications my heart is broken to pieces and its yours to keep i put damaged heart to god asking for a repair i just want know what is like living without pain