stressed

stress so heavy on my motha fucken brain insane maybe at least that's what they say if so wheres my check cause i sure aint got one all my life been been hell never seen them pearly gates hate to be negative but that's how it is why cant i just be loved feel happy theres always a haten ass bitch that wanna throw twigs i fucken break it beautiful disaster aint taken no shit fuck that bitch and who ever is with him i told ya ass once im not saying it again my feelings got lost back in 17 when i went fo prison lost my children and here i am again just this timeim alone my mind fucked im lost who cares so what giving up thats what u want fuck yall every last one ill rise just like the morning sun bright as fuck but still in the eving the sun sets i was made for this shit my life is a ficken disaster judge me hoe ur thoughts dont matter was u there to gove me shelter this negativity is getting to me how can i change my mind withought drugs its been my crutch for my broken ass life im trying to heal but my past comes back and fucks with me one day at a time rewind i wish i do so much shit different the human brain a power thing it cant defeat me im so strong but my mind sometimes week ive been in this hrll for eternity i close my mind bow ky head had god heard my prayers who know they aint answered yet