Losing Direction

IM LOSING MY DIRECTION BC I DONT KNOW WHERE ELSE TO GO.. OBLIVIOUS TO LIFE SEARCHING FOR A RICH MANS KNOWLEDGE AND CAPTURE HIS THOUGHTS FOR SURE. SOO, I COULD RISE LIKE RANK WITH CHARM AND WITY WORDS. IM AN 80S BABY. A TIME WHEN JERRY CURLS WERE HOT LIKE SUMMER BEACHES WITH WHITE SAND AND FINE LOOKING GIRLS. KIDS ARE COUPED UP IN THERE BEDROOMS DILUTING THEIR *BRAIN* MOTHERS SMOKING CRACK *COCAINE* LIKE IT'S NORMAL SHOWING SIGNS THEY DONT GIVE A FK ABOUT A THING... *MAN* LIFE IS FULL OF PAIN AND SORROW, IM DAMAGED. LIFE GETS HARDER WHEN UR ON UR OWN AND HAVE NO PARENTS.. *ON GOD* U LOSE SCREWS FROM UR HEAD U STOLE FROM SOME SHEISTY MECHANICS.... (I LOVE WHEN A GIRL SPEAKS ARABIC OR SPANISH GETTING WILD AFTER A DRINK. IM GETTING HAMMERED HAVING SO MUCH FUN COMFORTABLY⁵ ENOUGH TO (LET MY ODOR OF SHIT STINK. WHY DO WE DRINK TO OUR PAIN? WHY DO OUR EYES CLOSE. SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME THE PURPOSE OF OUR LIFE. HOW COME WE DIE? U THINK ITS LUCIFER? I DO SUPPOSE... BC SATAN IS EXPOSED SHOWING SIGNS HE COLABORATES WITH MEDIA. THE RICH ARE GETTING GREEDIER. THE HARDEST WORKERS AIN'T AMERICAN. THE IMMIGRANT WHO SNUCK INTO AMERICA IS AND I HONOR THAT SO DAMNED IF ITS ILLEGAl... IM SO TIRED, BUT IM WIDE AWAKE. STRESSING OVER UR CRIMINAL COMPLAINT. CANT PUT A PRICE TAG ON FREEDOM ITS WAY MORE VALUABLE THAN U THINK.... I NEED 2 MAKE PROPER DECISIONS FOR BETTER OR FOR WORST. WHEN REALITY KICKS UR ASS DONT RUN AWAY OR WAIT FOR SOMEONE TO SAY THERE SORRY TO U FIRST.. SO STOP WITH THE QUESTIONS ABOUT LOVE AND WHAT IT STANDS. THIS ISNT DADDY DAYCAMP WHERE U GET FREE HALLWAY PASSES FOR SCRIBBLING ON WALLS WITH CRAYOLA CRAYONS. WE USE TO HATE EACH OTHER BUT SNUCK AROUND LIKE LATE NIGHT SNACKS. CHEATED ON OUR PARTNERS FOR THE THRILL BC WE LOVED HOW OUR SEX WAS, AMAZING AFTERWARDS. (relapse, Google maps, q1A IT WAS MY WAY FOR MY NERVES TO SETTLE SOME AND RELAX.. SIMPLE REMEDY KNOWING U LOVED IT WHEN I TRIED BREAKING UR BACK. WHO CARES WHAT THEY THINK. DONT U SEE SIGNS THAT SOMEONE IS JEALOUS.. HATING FOR NO REASON AT ALL WAS A PROBLEM THAT CAUSED MORE HAVOC THAN HURRICANE KATRINAS.... U DONT NEED TO CHANGE FOR NO ONE IF U DONT WANT. DONT KISS NOBODYS ASS. OR FALL FOR THE JOKES OR LAUGHS. IT'S UR LIFE AND STORY. U CONTROL UR FUTURE AND UR PATH. I WANNA SHOW U WHAT ITS LIKE WHEN UR PAMPERED AND SPOILED... FK U LIKE I NEVER HAD IT BEFORE MAKING U CHANGE UR TINDER APP TO SINGLE MUST I MENTION, UR SERIOUS TOO WITH UR CARING GESTURES. WE HAD FUN ON OUR LATE NIGHT ADVENTURES. GOT WILD LIKE A GROUP OF YOUTHFUL OFFENDERS. * YEAH* WE'LL VISIT SKI RESORTS AND GET OUR BACKS RUBBED ON EVERY SINGLE TRIP. ILL SHOW U A SIDE OF ME THAT EXPLORES MORE THAN A TOURIST ON A GOOD YEAR BLIMP... THE ONLY CHANGE I NEED IN MY LIFE IS SUCCESS. WITHOUT DOUBT NONE THE LESS. IM A LOANER CUZ FRIENDS SCATTER LIKE LEAVES IN THE FALL WHEN UR DOWN AND NOT AT UR BEST... IM SO TIRED, BUT IM WIDE AWAKE. STRESSING OVER UR CRIMINAL COMPLAINT. CANT PUT A PRICE TAG ON FREEDOM BC ITS WAY MORE VALUABLE THAN U THINK.... THERES NO COMPARASING BETWEEN ME AND UR EX. SO DONT ASK ME HOW. THINK BEFORE BEING STUPID. I DONT ENTERTAIN IT. It's NOT ME OR WHAT IM ABOUT. [ FREEDOM IS WAY MORE (VALUABLE AND WORTH WAY MORE THAN U THINK.. LOSING UR FREEDOM WASNT WHAT U THOUGHT. NOW U CRY IN A CLOSET UR FREEDOM FOR LIVING ON AN EDGE TOO CRITICAL FOR ANYONE TO (ESCAPE.] IM LOSING MY SENCE OF DIRECTION, I DONT KNOW WHERE ELSE TO GO... IM OBLIVIOUS TO LIFE SEARCHING FOR A RICH MANS KNOWLEDGE SO I CAN ROB HIM FOR HIS THOUGHTS 9L⁷77⁷OCAPTURING HIS THOUGHTS UNTIL ITS A ONE MAN SHOW. SOO, I COULD RISE LIKE RANK WITH MY CHARM AND WITY WORDS........ IM AN 80S BABY FROM AN EROR WHERE! JERRY CURLS AND PERMS WERE HOT LIKE BEAUTIFUL BEACHES WITH WHITE SAND AND FINE ASS LOOKING LATINA GIRLS. KIDS ARE COUPED UP IN THERE BEDROOMS DILUTING THEIR BRAIN. PARENTS SMOKE CRACK COCAINE AROUND CHILDREN  ITS A REALLY INSANE THING. MAN. LIFE IS FULL OF PAIN ITS HORROR SO IM DAMAGED. LIFE GETS HARDER  WHEN U DONT RESPECT GOD NOR UR PARENTS. YOU START LOSING WEIGHT UR LUCKY LOSING UR APPETITE U LOSE UR MEMORY, SANITY AND ALL UR MENTAL AWARENESS.. I LOVE  WHEN A GIRL SPEAKS ARABIC OR SPANISH GETTING WILD AFTER A DRINK. IM GETTING HAMMERED AND HAVING FUN, COMFORTABLY ENOUGH TO LET MY ODOR OF SHIT IN UR BATHROOM REALLY WREAK... WHY DO WE DRINK TO OUR PAIN? WHY DO OUR EYES CLOSE. CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME THE PURPOSE OF LIFE. WHY DO WE DIE? IS IT LUCIFER THE DEVIL, WELL I SUPPOSE...  BECAUSE SATAN IS EXPOSED SHOWING SIGNS HE COLABORATES WITH MEDIA.THE RICH ARE GETTING GREEDIER. THE HARDEST WORKERS AREN'T AMERICAN, ITS THE. IMMIGRANT WHO SNUCK INTO  AMERICA  SEARCHING FOR A BETTER LIFE KNOWING THINGS. WILL BE EASIER... I DONT NEED TO EXPLAIN THE REASONS THAT U FEEL MAY NEVER FIT. YOU CANT TELL ME NOTHING REGARDING THESE MEAN STREETS WHERE CORNER BODEGAS SELL SLUGS OF ROCK COCAINE AND SHIT.... THE ONLY CHANGE I NEED IN LIFE IS SUCCESS. WITHOUT DOUBT NONE THE LESS. IVE ALWAYS BEEN A LONER BC FRIENDS SCATTER LIKE FALL LEAFS IN NOVEMBER  WHEN UR  DOWN AND NOT DOING UR BEST... STOP WITH THE QUESTIONS ABOUT LOVE OR WHERE IT STANDS.... THIS ISNT KINDERGARTEN INTRODUCTION WHERE UR ALLOWED TO GET ANGRY AND SCRIBBLE ALL OVER THE HALLWAY ⁵WALLS WITH CRAYOLA MARKER AND  CRAYONS.... WE USE TO HATE EACH OTHER BUT STILL SNUCK AROUND TO COMIT SEXUAL ACTS. CHEATED ON OUR PARTNERS ALL THE TIME BUT NEVER PAYED MIND TO THE ACCUSATIONS AND RUMORS REGARDING THIS AND THAT... <IN FACT> WHO CARES WHAT THEY THINK. DONT U SEE THE SIGNS OF A PHONY WHOS JEALOUS.. SO MUCH HATING GOES ON SINCE WE TEAMED UP AND TOOK OVER LIKE HURRICANE WIND DEADLY LIKE KATRINA  AFTER SHE DEVELOPS... U DONT NEED TO CHANGE FOR NO ONE IF U DONT WANT TO. TELL EM KISS UR ASS. DONT FALL FOR ANY JOKES OR LAUGHS. OR ENDULGE IN  BULLSHIT BC  INSTIGATORS HAVE A TENDENCY TO COME EQUIPPED WITH TRASH.. MUST I MENTION, UR SERIOUS TO WITH UR CARING   GESTURES. I LOOK BACK ON ALL OUR CRAZY ADVENTURES . TREASURING THOSE MEMORIES LIKE A SWEET 16 DANCE ROCKING $3,000 DOLLAR BOLINCIAS.... IM SERIOUS THOUGH, IM VERY CHARMING WHEN I WANT, I DONT GOTTA TRY. I DONT NEED TO BULLSHIT WITH ANYONE TO KICK IT, I   DONT STEP ON TOES, I DONT WISH BAD ON NO ONE, IM NOT A PATHOLOGICAL LYER... I have so many plans but WHY WOULD I TELL YA. IVE BEEN DEPRESSED, LOST MY CONTROL, LIKE EVERYTHING I OWNED. MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS, MY HOME AND FAILURE... sooo tired but im wide awake. wishing u were here right now in my arms, but u aint. Cuz ur a criminal now AND I WAS JUST INFORMED THE OTHER DAY A CONVICT LIKE U JUST CANT... THE ONLY CHANGE I NEED IN LIFE IS SUCCESS. WITHOUT DOUBT NONE THE LESS. IVE ALWAYS BEEN A LONER BC FRIENDS SCATTER LIKE FALL LEAFS IN NOVEMBER  WHEN UR  DOWN AND NOT UR BEST