MENTAL HEALTH

            MENTAL HEALTH               - CHORUS - Mentally I've been struggling because of the hate I try to hide It's like being back in the kennabec caught up in the current fighting for my life but I'm still alive somehow so people say I won that fight(ok) now I just got to cut out the lies that provoke the monster inside of me                   -V-1- It's been 30 months now an I still see tha cop  just lookin down  standing there watching me drown didn't even pretend to help didn't even give a yell want to be DOA so we didn't have to deal with bail Like he had some where better to be like he had something better to do one of Augustas finest retaliating for the bloody barbecue that was a stabbing years ago APD thought was me. to crime lab a year to get DNA results then they had to set me free so that oath to serve and protect they get to pick an choose and if you have any bad blood with the pig you're going to lose I may not a law abiding citizen its true But I'm still a motha fuckin human just like you CHORUS -   Mentally I've been struggling because of All the hate I tried to hide It's like being back in the kennabec caught up in the current fighting for my life   But im still alive somehow so people say I won that fight(so) now I just got to avoid all the lies feed the monster inside of me                                    -V-2- Injustices we face as excons-addicts plants a dark seed And all it takes is one call to find someone to feed the need Makes spinning out a really an easy choice All you got to do to find a demon follow his voice Chaos becomes a place that is comfortable to you Because you feed off the misery and have narcissistic view        Meanwhile a piece of your soul has been pushed out of reach  You can't even hear the preachers message anymore when he speaks So many years I gave my heart to these streets  Only to have it ripped apart or confiscated by police.                    CHORUS - Mentally I've been struggling because of All the hate I tried to hide It's like being back in the kennabec caught up in the current fighting for my life   But im still alive somehow so people say I won that fight(so) now I just got to avoid all the lies feed the monster inside of me                                  -V-3- A black hole filled my chest  Made room for chemicals to infest I thought I had control that is until the ether stole the show Nowa days I don't know who I am anymore   I do know one thing for sure Every day is going to be war No keys locked doors an blood on tha floor sometimes I feel like gate keeper at a cemetery get 1 family member squared away before you kno it you writing another obituary CHORUS Mentally I've been struggling because of All the hate I tried to hide It's like being back in the kennabec caught up in the current fighting for my life   But im still alive somehow so people say I won that fight(so) now I just got to avoid all the lies feed the monster inside of me