my fault

hahah yeah you know i had to make one for you guys haha yeah yeah mistakes were made and tears appeared time on top of time i really felt i would lose my mind i had to find my grind i had to find a way to shine out shine the words being said about me out shine all the haters that tried to pretend i wasn't a good mommy how could they do that to me it cut right through me i couldn't find the silver lining all i knew came crashing around me my air become unhealthy i kept trying to numb my pain suffocated by the empty ness that consumed me as i made eye contact with myself in the mirror i heard god say "angels are coming your way hold on little mama dont fall astray. keep your head on straight amd imma make sure you're okay you're going regain your place so for now stay patient because you know ill make the way. my faith Shakey asking myself how could God let me experience this hell months fly by me and birthdays approach these little faces im seeing on social media start to make me feel the most forgive myself how could I forgive my self ive been beaten and feel ive lost myself i remember when i got the news that i was really about to gain the chance to meet up at the park and hug the 3 of you. it was then i knew it was you it was you god you kept your word and cane through you made a way for me to began to correct my mistakes forget that our skin