dumb choices

Look nothings been the same since my aunties passed nothing can take away this pain cuz it’s fucking up my mental health and it’s playing on my mind Im not feeling the same I just sit there with ma pops and he asks if I’m feeling okay I just say yeah n carry on my day with that fake smile on my face I would do anything to release this pain sometimes I wanna grab that knife and take my own life I don’t want my family to live with the pain from the dumb the choices I make