death can't stop me

Damn it feel like I'm going under fucking with these lame ass n****** an sometimes I want to pull the trigger but that's just my mind tripping from the pain inside constantly trying to shake the devil off and all his plots he had to come up against me but if the Lord be for me who can be against . well hell I had my wife to put a gun to my head because the truth was to hard to take in but I understand when you loss your mother in high school and I know in your mind there are no wrong or right and at the same time you don't have time to recover from that pain and right outer that our baby girl Makayla was born not knowing she was born with a birth effect that no one know and there was no time to prepare for what was coming a baby straight out the wound onto a helicopter with no touches or hug from her father and mother and right then I tell the pain was running deep from your heart to mines now I'm feeling like I could have did more but the lost was hitting me hard to where life wasn't life no more and just when I thought things couldn't get no worse I get a call years later saying your younger brother die