Survive

I have to pay the price for laughter and I pay God directly. They say laughter is a cheap medicine. But to me it’s like buying the pharmaceutical company. My life is a mess but I still smile the most in my small world. When everyone around me is fake. It takes balls to not be afraid. When anything can go down wrong at anytime. I have to be cautious from time to time. I preach God to people and pray to God at the same time. I have been through a lot where I attempted suicides more than a few times. Don’t think I haven’t cried in my life. The schizophrenic I am it is not easy to survive.