when does the nightmare end

Take a look in the windows of my eyes, Does it look like I need to sleep, I would but life has already left ,me, Im sorry if I let you down ,I try my best for everyone, and I have no time, ,, for peace , when does this nightmare end, I never hurt Noone only harm I do I do to myself. Im failier after failier, I'm a huge mistake, I'm Made of waste ,everytime I feel alive , I'll put dead in its place, When does the nightmare end, I guess when I'm totally disposed, and I'm carried of by white coats. I know who you are ,what have I done not to be let go. So just get it over with shoot me or send me up the road, Cause my mind can't take anymore, I'm brainwashed to the point of letting go,I'll never heal from the attacks, I attract sorrow I'm not me any more , when will the nightmare end, when I finally cut my own throat ,why am the hoex That floats across mouts , of dope, eating my life away everyday, is there enough of my soul save before I'm set in my grave, no one remembers any good you do, it's the shoes you wore in a life before, when ya didn't give a flying fuck ,everyone,everywhere ,anything,fuckin sucked, then ya grow up still mentally fucked up,But you give up on blame, make a change to care about people and give my thanks to grace, and everything just stays the same, just want say I appreciate the brain ,yall made main frame, if I could prove it I would hesitate to put you all away.