nothing to lose

I wanna act like nothing is wrong try my best to feel strong like king kong sometimes I wonder what if nobody cares that I'm going under been facking with these shit for years now wanna do stuff no one allows sometimes I tell too many lies but that is needed to survive telling stories growing up with worries where is this world going I just keep growing in a world that's facked up getting canceled for everything that's facked up I just want to be happy being close to mom and daddy I got nothing to lose so fuck it let's go with it and suck it I got nothing to lose so I can do it every day and I won't ruin it cause I got nothing to lose nothing to lose I got nothing to lose so fuck it let's go with it and suck it I got nothing to lose so I can do it every day and I won't ruin it cause I got nothing to lose nothing to lose let's get real with it and try to change it but if I can't how can you try to understand it but I have no clue what am I going to do? acting brave? acting strong? hiding in a cave? hiding in this song? waiting for days? my whole life-long of course not cause I just had a thought there is not a lot needed to got me back in the right place cause I fought and found my way back and now I'm happy and not a wrack I got nothing to lose so fuck it let's go with it and suck it I got nothing to lose so I can do it every day and I won't ruin it cause I got nothing to lose nothing to lose