I Don’t Wanna Die Alone 😵

I don’t ever want to to die alone But I’ve seen it many times before I don’t want to see you no more I just wanna Have my story known I wanted to stay staring at my phone for 12 hours leave me alone And if you see if mom tell her I’m gone I left 14 years ago I sat outside Heavens door Knocking for months and got no reply Someone pulled me to the side said they were scared I was gonna die Now I can feel my heart drop through my stomach to the floor That’s exactly what I’ve told so many people before Now I’m sick with anxiety And I’m tired of Remembering I lost every one and every thing I don’t wanna lose no more And I don’t wanna die alone I don’t wanna I don’t wanna substance abuse problems since I was nine years old I started young and don’t laugh at that it’s not a fucking joke How would you feel if you were with your homie y’all about to smoke And someone not old enough to know right from the wrong Was hitting on that bong and had a fucking million problems to share Barely seeing that you’re there because that little kids mind was blown Hadn’t even had a chance to grow Before they got their hands on em And you know they don’t let go I just wanna tell you that there’s more to life than repeating a pattern I had to learn this through 13 years of battle not saying I’m any better but when it rains it pours and this rain feels wetter than it did before