Life matters

I am really happy I make it happen my life is so much better than before now if you want to try just try I know far I have been trying and so tired, stress all the time and where are you going this time I really don't want I really don't know I don't really have any trust on you anymore ya ya haaaa I am really happy in my heart and your name is in the world, could really don't know if I would be myself or be some else, my heart is cool am in pain have no appetite can't even eat, do you think I am alright how could I imagine myself for being selfish to you make my heart to connect and stord sad in my mind now I do realize all the time of you loving me isn't meaningless yaa I am really happy because I make it happen my like is so much better than before I hope it will be better again