Anos pasaos

So many years gone by homie and its a fuckin trip , some people done passed to another place in time , may they rest in peace ,but for me its still the same ol thing , nothing but a rerun homie, still trying to find myself i cant seem to get a fuckin grip on reality, stuck in the land of the lost, looking for a way to survive in a cutthroat world, full of evil doers lurking around anywhere they see fit itching for a come up fast ,trying everything and any thing to get a lil cash, but im on a whole different trip , but i feel so stuck frozen in time looking for a way to escape the madness in my mind but its something else spiritual i really need to dig deep inside and pick my brain so im asking god to help me find away to move on away from the pain i hold inside wondering why life has to be this way,getting sick of my selfish ways,and the only way to forget is to self medicate