How Do You Sleep At Night

after a 3 year relationship, that you didn't even necessarily get communication that it was even down to where they were planning on even leaving, n gave a unfathomable reason to make me seem like the issue, but there's 2 to parts in a relationship. both have the responsibility to not let it fall through,and she cheated and tried to gaslight n get my friends to gain legit as her army,so when the master plan was done, yet she didn't have time to bc I caught her red hand. let alone now it's been 7 months since she left n u so confused and what step to take. bc u have two opposite ways of thinking n shit with life and karma so it's always no matter what Its ALWASY its lose lose for every life choice that I choose,