what I wanted to be

sitting here listening to the Music you've made....... No joke growing up ......u know how you did me I got played.... Never not once did I ever even entertain the idea of doing u dirt ball... Sometimes I sit and wonder how , when or why you wanted me to fall.... hit the ground ...roll a little bit and adjust to the plans u obviously made or from the love of your heart had inbetween the days i would watch and learn from...... the only person i looked up to ......doin no wrong never that ....not you.....u were what i wanted to be ....you oh yeah u .....r the one that made me ......every body has a little shade....shadyness....or otherwise known as using someone .....its not u its them that gets the weak side of the stick....but some how when I'm winning I'm a prick piece a shit no good .......nah fuck that I'm talking now and on my life I'm just misunderstood .....been done wrong from damn near everyone I've met in life....plz trust me when I say I've seen the strong side of the stick ...a time or two....really it's not my fault.....the voice in my head sometimes tells me just what to do ......but before I acknowledge what the fucks Goin on my body mislead on its own .....my mind thinking what the fuck......yeah a mistake or two..... Not a mother fucker I met on the side a some raggedy road or sidestreet just walking by ....just a stranger in life ....nahhhhh my Sis.....Miss mother fucking leading everyone ...hey yo hear I am...over here....pick me...fkd up im never seen......you can trust this one thing....right hand to the man...cause truth be known I can say I'm one mother fucker that hasn't ever done u wrong..... no wrong.....hello nahhhhh this ain't that type a song....