"let go"

not enough time.... raww and all mine, speak to release its allright rough life right heres a little autobiographied started as youngin stay up 2 late parents always buggin smack nnnnd yell yell nnnnnd fight keep a kid up, all night *videogames my resource alright had no ideas how to vent my feels earbuds on, blink 182 songs muff the racket going on *multiple father figures mine left, dope across the hill go figure *one might have been tommy hillfigure gone at 5 years no figure, scars on my head right for him not be around *would of messed me upppp, more than i am nowwwww still dont know him the real ones waldos twin, or of relation this stations inflatin pin extinguish pop the bubble till i breath its suffocatin extremes nnn cover the screaminnnn lights on barely eatinnnn tough life right try to keep my head up 1 last time fast farward im 14 couple kids drinkin 2 much lean only one picked out the car that night police officer was nice let me finish my piss outside enter alcoholics anonimize when it comes to class *everyday, monopolize the same as the last tired teen tryin to nap 1st and 2nd periods understood that let me rest pitty on a young man get a call, front office *moms beligerent again, unconcious front lawn, family owned buisiness turned, horder nest of riches more rest in there then wishes common maaaa lets get you home trying to argue with thats on a ***wholeeee different level.*** coax her in the car and pedal multiple times, i deserve a medal love you momma, from here we deserve good karma skip a few years, blank out on weed and chill jump to my graduation year, tryumphant cheers scolor into college, be the first of mine who done it of cours im runnin with it college felt hollywood cocain found me, than i wasnt so good runnin a muk, with the calculator you know whats up one night found a savior, after a fifth a night did that really save yah keys spotted me in the hall, ****i trotted to a car thats not mine at all i got it took it, snow fall, driften ripen, manual stick shiften wrecked more than once, im trippen could thatov been a dream or unheathy livin got kicked out for baligerent runs, left skippin orderred some from a friend and it wasnt coke at all my freinds damn meth had me by the hair. chinny chin chin turned thin sin 3 ways from sunday who cared no winning around here rough ride right keeps me up all night imma try 1 last time became a family trade my depression was overrun by pain. rap sheet 3 pages long long ways, front to back yall even the obituaries hard page, had alot of loss in my life, alot due to these hard ways no one ever asked they figured i was trash eh wastin their air and smack eh had a mental disorder eh dont give him any slack eh 13 years down the road still have more problems then saying no this all started a skizzy in the pocket went to court residue bag got me clocked in defender and attorny made sure they win win boxcarred, 5 flat after another defferred thats 10 years residue, its absurd now revicated, they thinkin imma learn feds knew my rights, unlike these guys *forensic sued, used and abused, small oscar check it sue, made me a rockstar ontop of ticket, charge, ridiculouse how hard they take what little money a single dad cant make it in these harsh ways its point takin, cant leave with the system steakin me to the nearest tree its memories of beeing locked up arent enough, even the private general stickin that near my face is my mental centerfold ive tried to let it go, but thats a hard one too fold, no one willin to help WHAT!!! (scream < 3) cold case shut, lock up killed a kin what other problem could begin eeehh? rough life right heres a little autobiographied still trying to stay alive call in a life flight this may be the last flight right trying to stayup dont want my demons finishing before me yuh. pressured by the oposit THEY IGNORE MY GRIEVENCE TOO WEAK, MESSED UP A TEEN with 2 kids, didnt think they spreadin the hate **but it did its insane, they insane, take away their power play dually sworn to protect, here the opposate judged for where i was born blood runs this, thicker than thick heavens scorn too poor to afford a good lawar ***for heaven sake ***where is a safe place to hide my face! pressure has me down, depressed depress the clutch off a cliff chick left me with the kids no kin, if i mention any its a sin too poor to leave, ***plus ive always been stuck on a leash ***yuuuhh even when im doing things the wright way bbbbb *shees all they want is slight infractions make money, put it in the bag, stop asking biggest thugs ever met, hold em for ransome NISSAN STEAKED NNNN, ACURA BAKIN cant keep a car to save grace nnnn STRUGGLE IS REAL, IM ALSMOST A HAS BEEN write warrants without wellbeeing could care less if i dropped, or stopped breathing im reaching open season my mental capasity is leaking jump before i stop bleeding any peaces to the puzzle im leaving yeah if not this would be a couple days reading and i dont have a couple days at this rate keep locking me up imma snap insane, self harm left arm, horizantal broken beer bottle or until i pass away from post partum, tunes got em use your gun on em quick juke, end my tune real soon you nazis from another problem stacking problem ontop of problem dolla ontop of dolla untill no ones left to solve em still paying child support county wont sign off on my parenting plan no support over a year and its one thing after another aaawww maaaann still under their thumb nnnn long line of pain and suferin cant have mine, living a similar line lets spread love and unjudge--ments leave that to god, you are all un-fit i pray nnd nod bless thos, who know, not what they do test those who know what they do im only human and sinner too i pray release and reliefe for the things that hold me let them go obi one konobied scratch and sniff let the real ones know me without this i cant let go of what holds me heres to the lifeflight qqmy left eye use my right brain itll be alright mayne