no more hating

better to tell you the truth I just can't type on my phone anymore Plus I'm running out of words to say I'm descriptions because I each day I learn and gets and get wiser I just don't seem to feel like I have any words to say about anything because I am getting to be on in wisdom that I just don't know or feel like I got it in me to say I get tired you know my health is deteriorating and I'm still doing things that I shouldn't be doing and I'm just angry and bitter disappointed but the only person that's hurting first and foremost is myself I'm making myself suffer and I know that in turn my family is going to suffer because it's just not going to be forever whatever happens and I try to be easy on people and be communicative and outgoing and outspoken and just a gesture and try to clown and s*** show everybody it's good we could be all good but m************ out here just selfish about nothing but damn s*** and what the f*** what about me what about me that and they say that this is all about me and not them and we don't give a s*** about them but I beg to differ but I don't know I guess nobody's there for each other than right because everybody's fighting over the same old s*** nobody f****** listens to each other and that's a f****** b**** so don't f****** listen to me then f*** you b**** I mean everybody's just got there on the agenda that's why we ain't going nowhere so I ain't never going to do s*** I ain't going to blow up and go do s*** ain't going to go nowhere ain't nothing happening and nothing happened for nothing if you don't do nothing about it ain't going to happen so what the f*** you expecting s*** I do my s*** I puss in mind man I try to be all around for everybody real but in the end somebody like that just going to pay for it from everybody because they don't want to understand they won't say s*** wrong cuz they don't want to change themselves