devil in my head

I got to make it one day one way the devil in my head telling me God don't love me I'm a sinner so I believe him if God was so real why can't he talk to me I feel all alone like I'm not worth anything I hate this life maybe in the future life will get better every tear I have she'd have been for you God but you never reply I'm tired of waiting if you can't take me to Heaven the forgive me for being lost if I go to he'll of well I tried my best gave it my all to be a good song and a good brother and father to my beautiful boy giovanni I love you I can't understand why your mom won't let me see you in would never hurt you I promise I'll stick around to see you grow into a man I'll teach you everything I know love you son