open eyes closed fists to blame is all I know seconds to grow anger inside ruling my life edge of the knife coping skills falling behind falling in love leading the blind my thoughts are stumbling world is crumbling the words I'm fumbling spinning to fast this life is trash ashamed and gassed how long does it last too much time has passed frantic I'm manic inner battles turning to wars we are okay versions of me I put away so fast it's taken away lost in a crowd my mind jumps heads all lumped running away making mistakes the time that it takes to forget who you were earlier today taking up space in the way behind my addictions the real me fades bitter and hates missing a place that gone in a flash memories are all we have pictures burnt by a bitch with a chip give me a grip talking shit taking a sip as I slip into an episode of rage and disappointment concussed a tad writing in this pad thinking alot of shit I forgot everything co.es to a stop experience is waisted on poor decision making sure all my family hates me . a looser forever my dream and I made it. exhausted irritated