Bullet in my mouth

aye well you might as well put a bullet in my mouth aye yeahh my life i could write a book of everything that has gone on in my life so just 2 days 9-10 -2022 ago since 2019 i finally had contact with my second oldest but i had a break down of the past i cried and threw up and then broke out in hives i still kept pushing forward as well with everything I'm doing now . I stuck up for her as well as myself aye nothing new but least i got to tell her of some of the most very recent stuff about my ex and the mother of my ex and what was going on so aye hoping n praying i get my kids home i just don't know what to trust meanwhile I'm still waiting on my new therapist too kinda funny isn't it how life is and how it turns out . The pain i feel well might as well put a bullet in my mouth !!