Undefine feeling

I dont wanna go down I dont wanna quite I'm chasing the goal I'm like a dead roses I don't show off my colour it started when I was a taller I used to live with my grandma nd my two big siblings like in the lion king we were left helping everything we did was solid yu couldn't even break us I had think otherwise my big brother didn't finish he chased the wrong dream nd end up behind bars,facing 25 years he can't say he didn't commit crime like Kelly did to our idol now he will be acting crazy tryna right his wrong with me thought the nigga was left clueless, he thought wrong thise time I'm driving the game he's gonna watch me like a hater can't touch me I'm burning in fire I don't feel no cold air can't caught the flue I am addict to cocaine I sniffed that shit nd went high back.to my family like I'm visiting a cell mate after we honour my grandma last moments it did well coz we were together except the nigga behind this bars I'm tryna spit yu might think I saw it in movies untill I was behind bars facing nothing but misunderstanding information lead to misery seeing ur future being blown by wind was the prayer I was so high no weed can get me that far I had to fly it up nd let it down by it own my family wasn't there to show love I got it from the street even my opps were showing love I felt that demonish moment of silence I gave it all to yu nd yu brought pain in my eyes I don't bleed twice I'm too skinny to drown a boot put ur seatbelt on the game is moving to fast I become a master before mastermind that's my homie he always smilling showing off his trill he shines his crown I put earing in my ears they notice changes the same people who used to play with me even my lips turn red I made them menstruate in 5 days I womanizer them with my mind guess the nature will never select me I'm the selecter of this natural selection I'm too strong to conquer this journery I'm redesigning this again in my app they call me G in my street they call me sadboy the gals went crazy about the name it came unique nd inspired kids to respect me the rap won't end till I die I deliver the emails to ur account I don't fill no address I'm lost, can't find myself it like losing virginity this world fucked me over