baby girl your daddy got you

even though I don't get to see you just know I love you hate the fact that your momma keeping you away from me you tell me that she mine then say that she ain't when you mad at me i guess it grief then it could be karma that don't understand I scream DNA test you say am dead beat how could that be when you never told me when you left and lost the communication but I know you left because your momma was sick you had to leave at the time we were young I didn't want to leave are give up on the little that I had even if it was small dream but dreaming of taking care you and my baby girl it's hurtful feeling I feel like I let her down when she don't even know her own daddy look just like me smile like me short as me slanted eyes like you Chinese and chunky you were 7 pounds and 4 ounces born in January and my birthday right behind you in the same month it hurts when I see pictures then the picture disappear like you don't exist I guess your momma really do hate me I hate the fact I gotta to feel this pain i can't see you I hate the fact I put myself before I put you because I was young and didn't know what I had till I seen the pictures of you afraid to let go of what I have for you now I tell my self I don't need life unless I got you from little time I did spend with you I don't want you to grow up hating your dad I apologize baby girl am here in the flesh I be there in a flash if I just get the time with one wish to give anything to see you and hear you and watch you grow I go into over drive and determination to get you and give you everything you need with that unconditional love I should've been gave you long as there is air in my body I pray and promise to protect and provide for you and cover you and watch you continue to grow as you progress I plan with strategy so you never have to suffer are worry about money are your. well being you daddy from the gutta ground up you don't have to ever worry long as breath