Exotic Jewels (22:20:27)

dear mom, i wish you cared more about me. i wish that when I cried, you’d hold me instead of laughing at me. sometimes I think you’re ashamed I exist or ashamed of the way that I act i also realized you never tell me you’re proud of me i got a job mom can you be proud of me can you say something that isn’t negative or give me a hug or be warm and not cold can you pack a lunch for me and listen to me when I’m upset can you try to understand when I tell you my regrets can you not blame me for my addiction and issues it hurt you but it hurt me more i got clean I got a degree but you’re still mad about it your worst nightmare is not being a good mother open your eyes I’m right here you can fix it now