I aint afraid of the darkness

[Verse 1] I'm not afraid to chase the dark cuz I been through it myself, ain't pretty picture trust me you tell me go away but everything happens so slow, I used to get bullied in school til the point, I was at the edge of the bottle and started smacking them kids, almost got suspended tho, then when I went to high school I dropped out, because I couldn't deal wit it, Everyone talks and nobody listens you tell the teachers but they ain't do anything they picked on me and played with my emotions, now all feel is anger and sadness I don't wanna look through the glass/mirror cuz its gonna take me back to a dark place I ain't wanna be in, people disrespect me so they ain't gon get my respect, you want it earn it, now I'm lost In my thoughts, I don't really know who I'm now, my trust broken heartbroken, I never got any friends so I rap on beats with passion and emotion, I'm kind but when they use my kindness to play me I became cold like ice, I dont bother nobody I stick by myself, I don't need a squad I'm solitary, my Distance between me and happiness is expanded the scars where never mended, taking a step towards, music hopping someone would feel me, and sign me looking through memories I start to cry and sob, when nobody's around, I stick on the ground, tryna reconstruct myself from peices back to a full price, I give em love but they want destruction, sometimes my siblings uses my past against me, I feel offended I feel alone I feel that people are against me I know it's not true but that's what I feel Its funny to see That everything I thought it as expected to be things never happened how I want it to be now I'm really lost in this path, I hope I see light, I hope it shines so I can know my way [verse 2] but when I look at my scars it hurts me but I gotta overcome them, and face them Out this view of me that I showed myself As I walk by myself facing all my pain and fears, And I haunt myself because I hide the tears and emotions but the pain I carry cannot hide, I always make sure that I keep my myself healthy nobody can fix your traumas because it's in my brain I tried to forget it bury it, and remove it off my system There ain't a place you can hope to escape from stressing moments, embarrassing moments, sad moments, but you gotta go through pain to become stronger, you gotta go through failure to succeed, you gotta fall to get back up again, you do mistakes it helps you not to do them again why do I have to go through this pain to be where I'm today, I was crying in the rain deep inside myself feels like I'm drowning In water, but to all my haters imma let this reign all this people don't know anyone past I don't trust nobody nowadays because I'm afraid of getting stab in a the back, to gain my trust again is not that easy, feels like I'm tied to a chain while sleeping like sleep paralysis, I can't sleep cuz all this dark past memories come to my dream vividly and its tormenting me, I'm trying to fight back but can't but neither I'll will never give up