Derailed pain

Verse 1 Every time i rhyme i hurt somebody me u stop my moms getting beat to death i guess lifes a long road i needa walk my steps my step dad yelling voices seep through my head stronger than me i would bleed for my brothers cason grason and even my big brother brenden i would take a cut stride through an amour fight through the rut fuck the pen helps the pain resistances from the ends its the hurt that bodies me every time i walk i fall but try and fucking talk but my head is blazed like confederate hillbilly shit i try to help my tears fall like spring see what i mean two different storys just not in season i hate my life i hate the mic i hate myself i need to rest untill i relief the hurt in bones i press Hook Hurt in my body dont cry keep staying strong cameren u can make it i cant take it ill fake it and hope i make it derailed pain detailed in my brain Verse 2 Everywhere i go frozen lungs feel like im cold placed i hope were i go i have a plate i will never win a race my pace up in down like a yo yo school fights school hypes the pain even more as soon as i get home arguments knocked right at the door fuck i go outside to escape and vent and pretend like nothing happened take a napkin and fall asleep with a dap pen on lower open to can tin i cry for help even tho my big brother picks on me i know his tryna do right even when i get hit he'll stand up for me and make sure no one fucks with me in the long run ill fight just to stay alive but well all run untill we all die but I've had a hard life no doubt abt that and im only 13 if i commit suicide they just try to quarantine everyday the sad pain hurts and derails pain Hook Hurt in my body dont cry keep staying strong cameren u can make it i cant take it ill fake it and hope i make it derailed pain detailed in my brain Verse 3 Ight this is the last verse and i struggled just to make this one everyday bruises on my mom face who abuses drugs on the way a kid so great and who would a knew i would make it through what the fuck pandemic what i wanna cry this shit keeps hurting my mom desperate for money if she got 1000 dollars i guarantee me and brothers wouldn't go hungry see i love my mom she got through drugs twice she helps me with girls and advice u helped me through suicide over through to 9 u worked a 9 to 5 just to survive living my dad died and im glad u could be both my parents and that's no less to him i love him for the short time i know i still owe him i miss him more than anyone ever but the star starts to shine the sun starts to rise i begin to realize that it happened because of a short change of tides water splashes earth turns and im glad i haven't crash its great day now sad and pain erased inverted to the invention of my perfect hurt but i know its gonna happen again