Where do I begin (rough draft)

Where do I begin these back stabbing friends here I go again I spin and I spin can’t get my balance full of venom Took place over years and years here I go again I spin and spin and spin like drinking a fifth and put in the washer spin cycle 10, the fifth was gin don’t believe me look in the washer and see not the bile the undigested juniberries. Why do I spin? You really wanna know or just blowing wind? Like your bowels after a bowl of beans and 2 enchiladas Hmm Where to begin. Fake friends, no bands, fat hands roach burns my fingertips like I dipped them in acid wrapped Umm in plastic strapped to a furnace. self conscious like being pants at a school function. And Mrs Johnson seeing my Johnson (only happened once) .Been left hanging like the last piece of fruit to fall before fall,then I did no spring no bounce at all no ball busted like my ego. Picking my date up in my pinto. or my dick when I think about Kamala Harris yeah I’m sick who thinks of that bitch, and gets turned on like a light switch did I mention nice ass nice tits, shit I just itch and itch to exsist like crabs in a genital ditch, opposite of a snitch, Like techasi 69, switched with a confidant Wanna hear my sales pitch? Starts with, fuck these back stabbing poly wagging fake friending let’s go Brandon, I eat crayons for dinner, pussies. I call it how I see it, walking vulva with ears, talking with labia lips, breath smells like fish, nose is a clit. Man shit I could do this again and again. Like drinking beer with a friend and smoking blunts with a clown Where do I begin these back stabbing friends here I go again I spin and I spin can’t get my balance full of venom Took place over years and years they’ll never understand dumbasse drove straight through the learning curve, past go to dumb to collect there dough crashed In to the lake, tied to each other like conjoined brothers sunk to rock bottom to stay forever. Died but didn’t go to heaven, instead inserted in an oven cooked to 180decibals and left to scream for eternity and think of me in between the shrieks how it use to be when you was free how you treated me like a used busted condom, used me while you could and fucked me good soon as I break throw me in the sewers with urine, feces and boogers, pathogenic bacteria lured into the depths never used again.