Didn’t have shit

Stater jackets… I couldn’t have it…I felt like chump…rebook… pumps ..Nike hiking boots.. yellow walkmans ..shit I couldn’t have it ..hated I didn’t have shit …hateing the passion…war on drugs or war on us ..Nintendo..I had a pretendo …when the dope man came thru it was just the window…we know..we can’t have it…I was asking..on the insides my hearts crashing….baseball? Fuck yall ..gave us a free base..cracking the face of my race and my family said have it..that’s what we haven…naw y’all can have it… House note? ..no a reachable goal so we ain’t asking…soon asking and begging was happening…no more eggs and cheese..no sink..or a door ..for a key no existing lease …God gift foreal is free…your will..is of strength…haven ..setting u free of your habits is what your having… New life got it had to have it…grandkids and a church in your future new extended life for your wife… Fastfoword..now it’s me..I know I owe ya Praise for moving us forward longs days and a nicu.. nights are over ….3sons a daughter and a wife .. my daughter was born blind physion blessed her with her vision…on his last day of living … Her sight and life is what she was given … Stress kills ..stress u can have it.pray for the pain…just for the strength to get past it…more the money more problems that’s sooo evedent..if u pray for the money pray for the problems