Luck (06:25)

voices in my sleep amunition for weak entities grieving loss of the best friend fellow ship down, no shame hit the ground, last bit of hope was her hand out, extended begging for forgiveness,just as our fingers start interlocking, black hole parkison sezie shell shocked. felt my world crashing down look around, death by sound of her 6what im seeing? could it be, all along played by ear, intuition told me put the same key into the ignition, pull in catchem in action back onto my feet. without her embrace false longin company her visioned. must be the devil for expecting some listening now clearly witnessed, thats my misses, but her kisses aint landing on my lips, the man i visioned no longer in need of re construction. focused so hard on my recovery, the broken dream. stupidly singing FUCKING annoying noones a boying country music, narssisistic temperless manic polar Depression. labelled emotion deficiency, souless dust opposite of invisible still i pretend no one notice me. had the highest girl in town. till she drifted outer space, so far now, my tears reflect her face. use to be the one to take her out. overnight like a light, but nevermind. another fight. ridiculed and dont know why. i wrapped my arms around her tight. tell me why i still refuse to believe myself was right. coping mechanisms always run from conflict and negitism. facing detrimental, realizations shaken hands with the man replacing hope hes capable of better conversation hate myself for dreaming of her naked ass that i use to hide my tears in. second thoughts separation shes so dedicated. to my demise. i am despised. an everytime, no longer hers and Mine. only mocked and threw behind. was it myki confiditial full attention, never jumping at the doubt that clouds her mind shouting out above the crowd how THAT girl is Mine. i witness beauty far beyond ur pity party past the planets limitations. maybe her reaction to the flood of interaction with a Son i made my own. taking turns seeking mothers affection. or just as simple as ill never be enough to attract infactuation. not so much as flagged red inclantion, of the tipicle overberring father clingy cheesey, showing signs of mental lapse, terrified im on the track, that leads to underestimated weightless accusations.questioned yet again. God fix me please, i cant just be at ease and calmly dissmiss these imaginary scenes, of Someone on the side when im begging for more visitation. never saw this point of view, my IMAGE. stunt double duck and cover. make up my own worth. supposedly amounting at all no not to anything. ashamed to be seen with me at walmart, or the dollar tree. theyre went my feet. tummy turning, and now what use to be reality, is an intervention no one mentions the Hell stormed in, i paid it When? forgave my sin. ministering hazardous storm debree, tree damage scaring families. means absolutely, nothing Now, but fooled Twice as long as i hold out tore and crumbled proof i love you full ofignorance. i CHOSE to hold on to your influence. placed far beyond my faith in this. day ONE admitted every winse. and shook off heavy evidence. blamed of jealousy toward the kids. repeatedly degraded, my best attempts reciepts and rents, is money is SEPERATE from the love i give. atleast explain your disposition. my children dont need addiction definitions.i fell face first God knows the worst. my ONLY lusts fantasized of you, cant believe how True i was. intentions remained unchanged till now. you never planned to settle down. look down into our daughters Eyes , ask YOURSELF how many lines, how can you still feel justified? the same children i hold, continue to mold followed in your HAZING and i have to be stronger than the youth fountain. those evil things you say to yall pretend and Play. dont expect a phase.only begged for you Alone. never forced you to choose made myself loose. this symphony mumbled Truth, or Dare, spin again, making sure its all tied up before coming in. your the closest i got to Believing in true love. my insecure hollow shell. was finally put up not for sale. but now im nothing but a ghost in your shadow. i studied dayily on tips to please you. sadly now i see its Him who teased you. and because you saw yourself in me. your welcome ill always remind myself of your words. all my flaws hated by my own curse ashamed to speak another word. id just pull the trigger. but then no one else can love my kids, and for them forgiveness is what ill always give. and advantage you must have, abondonedment became my home. your heath still my concerns end SHORT, stop. loss relevance. embrace these trees without boundaries. i promised myself betterment confidence commitment im MR. right begging god for a life. regretting being alive my wasnt episode loosing my desire ambitions telescoping drive cllodided catastrophe. pointless broken pencil Serenity.