ceiling

staring celen tryin to connect the dots to get to the top so tired of struggles i just want my name to bubble stay out of trouble and make my money doubles and life is a struggle u goin to run into troubleshooting desition u can make it b shute u can deal wit it im hard headed i knew all the constituents ima still shack tha dice ima handle the situation regardlees steady stressing need a blessing every thing goin b ight prepare for worse its like a fucking curse my head it fixing to burst this feeling is tha worst one day u here the next u gone cheish every min on my knees i ask for forgiveness no i aint been living rite pain in my yes seen my daddy fighting for his life and when he died part .e died i hold it deep in side to much pride to show it butbeverybody knows it turn ta opiates ta drown my pain doing nothing but maken more misery family cant even trust em from a distance gotta love em try a connectgha dots it hard maken those attachments my lil daughters are my everything i cant picture leaving they side i hate see u cry bby dont wanna go away and do no mo time the girls older 1 now watching time fly bye sum times i cry thinking way back when u didnt hate me and im sorry im breaking im not physically or mentally stable so i stay high and try to forget everything but i kno everything gonna get better steadybwalking in the rain hurt full of pain relationship is fucking toxic i just wanna get a gun put it to my head and pop it in stead i pop a xany and sit in my room and forget about everything