So Long

do u do u remember new jersey when it was just u n me we left the resorts headed straight for the sea late night on the boardwalk we did more than talk we had our feet in the sand felt ur heartbeat in my hand the smile on ur face let me know i was ur man ur lips met mine it sent a chill up my spine bein there with u made me feel like i was flying warm ocean water up to our knees. that is one of my best memories fresh out the penitentiary releasing penned up energy caressing u so tenderly i hope that ull remember me when im gone when im gone. its been so long but i did u wrong n i want to say im sorry dont think it didnt scar me cuz it most certainly has so i nervously laugh to keep from internally lashin out n passin out from the pain i feel inside it feels like i have died but when i open my eyes im still alone in hell problems arise and only time will tell how long this shell of a man can keep pressin on the depressions strong n its pulling me down i try to hold on without makin a sound but i fall to the ground with noone else around i worry that soon my body will be found and i cant elevate myself beyond this i need u to respond quick ive calmed a bit since we were a thing u were my queen n i was ur king but my reign is all but over almost 2 years ive been sober but where has it gotten me theres no option B uve forgotten me n now im gone so long