Mercy on me

I'm still thinking about my Life It's hard for me how far i have gone away from you i can't explain i wake everyday with burden in my heart i can't feel myself I'm in the hood With this bad mood Now this is getting serious And nothing luxurious For work I've lost my strength don't give a fuck loosing the breath Nothing makes sense with all these offenses while hardship's intense For scarcity of gold My inner man's cold My mind's getting weak I'm impatient I've lost hope I've lost the way i ve lost all appetite Hook this ain't me this ain't me this ain't me this ain't how i live this ain't me this ain't me this ain't me l lost me this ain't me this me this ain't me Have mercy on me this ain't me this me this ain't me Have mercy on me Verse I remembered when i was on zeal (for u) i spent hours on my knees i enjoyed praying ceaselessly i did nothing carelessly look at me right now it's hard for me to eat it's for me to sleep Or i sleep tired And wake up tired i just fuckin tired with every shit all these load on my head won't let me rest with this much to give it's only a little to get this put me always on nerves it's not all about hard drugs, drug dealing casual sex, envy or jealousy but being away from God because life's pressure this is hard for me