a lot of things

I've been through a lot of things including watching CPS buster my door and escort me out with security I thought through it all but that still hurt me severely. I know my brothers up in heaven watching but I wonder if he can hear me. I'm tired of using drugs and overdoses I lost my little brother to it man we were the closest I'm tired of the rest Wells and Rip's you know what I mean if you grew up in these little States like me. I got anger issues I need to type to let something be. my mom has had a lot of men in her life including one that beat me when I was a little baby and I got the Blakey he's lucky my finger didn't slip and pull the trigger. if my finger would have slipped he would have had to gunshots in him and he would have been in the river. I wanted to cut his throat like some scissors he was a loser and I told him only true men can be winners. and I told him if he ever put his hands on my mom he better know how to take a bullet to the heart I'm lucky he went to prison cuz killing him with my last resort. and if you would have kept on I would have cut his life short I would have bought on him like I'm on the basketball court. he overdosed but pulled through I told him I wish you would have died instead of making me still be here with you. I've been through a lot of things including watching CPS best of my door and escort me out with security I thought through it all but the stuff hurt me severely and internally I know my brother's up in heaven watching but I wonder if he can hear me I'm tired of the using drugs and overdoses I lost my little brother to it man we was the closest I'm tired of the rest Wells and Rip's you know what I mean if you grew up in the little states like me.