am I alive

Am I alive? I don't know 33 years old nothin to show Wastin away on licor, flower power and blow Walkin with no distinction to go Man wouldn't be a criminal if people from the past haven't criminalised crow I punch walls when I feel low My dreams my heart and brain are getting thrown out the window man got hold by my long hair got beaten badly now my face belongs to a freaks show I tried to od on painkillers not long ago Now man just want to go with the flow Now I'm gonna live to the max and when I die just wrap me in a sheet and bury me as a John Doe I'm sick of missin your smile,your eyes I'm dying to see again that glow Crow make time go slow Need a line to get me on the tip of my toe Got pay yesterday man already wasted all my dough I'm still in this buzz rollercoaster on vodka chocomint and yay yo