Every day is another mental attack all I can do is rap suffering through all this crap only way left to cope is to keep chocking this smoke down my throat till I feel like I float lossing grip of the rope that keeps me tethered to reality contaplaiting my insanity but it just seems to complicate can you relate I can't even face myself in the mirror my mind boiling it's starting to simmer days are going by quicker feeling my life line growing thinner so depressed I can barely eat feeling week stuttering when I speak don't even know the day of the week every day is a haze this stress is fucking with my brain and I'm not the same the old me is dead buried him in the deepest part of my thoughts curled up in my bed voice's screaming inside my head debating with a knife on my life might end up dead yeah you heard what I said suicide put my emotions aside and do it or maybe I'll just shoot it put that holo point through my skull cuz what's the point of living if I'm just being driven away nobody wants me to stay just to go away every book has a ending just hope mine ends with happily ever after a little bit of laughter after all this shit I deserve it when I get it I'll try to preserve it try to conserve it don't matter how you word it only that you heard it make it last long and end it with a hard rip on the bong playing my favorite song I don't get why me and my family don't get along is it because I live in the real world and they live in fantasy is it because I live in agony and they live happy wish someone would grab me and pull me up I feel my lungs starting to crush sitting in this rush of emotion make me a potion to forget all this commotion I'm hurting drinking vodka wish I could've stopped ya from leaving now I'm grieving feeling like I'm dieing I hope you don't think I'm lieing this pain has left me crying got me buying drugs just to make these voices shut up I just want them to hush I've heard enough why dose my life have to be so rough I hate the feeling of cuffs but it's a constant sensation do to my demonstration of emotion causing explosions just want them to feel don't mean to kill but I can't heal these mental wounds I know death is coming soon