Losing my rights

Losing my rights, I can no longer light black candles, neither use drugs, nor date, and I don't trust anyone anymore, as I don't transmit confidence, this bipolarity affected my psychological, and only relieves me with medication, I was watching the gray from my yard. gray between closed forests, sensational reports all the time on open channels, people suffering and being left to drift of their own luck, born in this country little luck, I don't know why I find myself walking around aimlessly, without a dollar in my pocket, alone ever since I started, I definitely learned not to create expectations in others, or in close relatives or not, the ideological bias of anarchy is active in me, but I need a job and that is in the background when hunger comes, stay away from me, I'm pistol