I gotta be real with myself I wasn't being real to myself I still have scars that run deep and I haven't spent any time healing myself No one around could, feel what I felt I felt stuck from putting fear in myself I'm still getting burned, now I'm steaming in hell God, acting like I'm not screaming for help I, gotta get up I can feel it in my gut I wanna give up I can't trust anyone 'cause everyone switch up I can't love anyone 'cause everyone slip up It's just me, don't got anyone I can hit up All I dreamt of was seeing a stadium fill up Because of me every light in it gets lit up Changing the world through every lyric I spit up But until a, change happens in me I can never change it I turned fake, I got the balls to say it I was riding waves, tryna get famous A million plays, they know what my name is Now I hate the stress that it all came with My anxiety's high and it's mad dangerous I lost my girl, I could never save us Being honest with yourself is the hardest ain't it? It's okay to admit when you're wrong and you're fake It's okay to lose yourself when you make mistake It's okay to lose faith after a heart break I can't say I'm perfect if I did I'm lying to your face I'm a liar, and I lie everyday I act like I'm fine but I ain't Inside I'm dying and I pray, 'cause I'm only human Yeah, what more can I say? Damn I feel like I found me but I'm lost again, oh-oh-oh I felt like I could do it without a friend, oh I'm a liar, to myself I'm a liar, to myself, yeah I gotta be real with myself I wasn't being real to myself I still have scars that run deep and I haven't spent any time healin' myself No one around could, feel what I felt I felt stuck from putting fear in myself I'm still gonna burn out steaming in hell God, acting like I'm not screaming for help I, gotta learn to Accept the fact that there's no one to turn to Accept the fact that the flame we have burned through I fucked up bad, knowing that I don't deserve you So many problems that we could've sat and worked through Wishin' that I wasn't the one that had to hurt you So blind to that I didn't see that from your view And now I'm stuck with pictures that I sit and search through And I heard you, moved on, and damn it, it's my fault I'm sick of all the damage that I caused I'm so sick of fricking living inside of my thoughts I'm blind to what I have and only see what I've lost And I thought, if I blew up, I would be happy Well I'm not! So don't even ask me If it looks like I am then I'm probably just acting 'Cause life is a movie, mine looks like a sad scene