starting over

yo so now I've been doing this awhile and I must say I've got a little bit better at this. Cuz at first i was like freaking out loseing my mine thinking i was in the twilight zone. here but not being totally here in the moment so finly am slowing started slowing it down a bit , slowly putting me back right, if I ever was right, now am start with nothing.like everyone does, fuck this is going to suck and i am big time. cuz man i had it all a house, money even the little stuff we take for granted. And i mean being treated like an adult no rules just my own were i did as please. not like i was breaking the law all the time just some times. up all night with who i wanted to be with, no one telling me that am to loud i cant go there cuz of this and that. and i know this covid 19 has o lot to do with that and am fine with that. but i ve had enough, so I ve heard, read, and seen some people do some outrageous shit. So Iam going to suck it up, schick my self out, position me, my being, the unseeing, overseeing cuz I am for stewing for a chance to come up againg. Am packed ready to back, overseeing it like that like a dreamy being ,being placed by me where i want to be at. so am headed in the right direction and I'm gonna get the needs help to bounce back. cuz am al pack for that long ass trip back to where i was at before, i took that trip to who knows where. i didnt see no street signs or welcome sings thet says you are now entering who knows where no where, thats is where am at. No where i want to be. So now i just got to listen to the people with the direction s on how to get back to where i was at and ill be all right? right! cuz iam all packed waiting to be on my way back. when i was laughing just being me cuz right now i dont like who this is but its not quit so right its not me