Growin up for me was a struggle Not the type of being hungry or having nothing to wear I fought a different battle Felt like I was living in a nightmare                                         Im an only child, from a single mother Never had a sister, brother or a father Many will think im being selfish Everything she gave me, I should learn to appreciate                        Cuz I never went to bed hungry Never wore clothes with holes in them The truth is, im just a broken stem Many had something I would of fucken died for                        That shit just cant be fixed anymore There are some wounds that never stop bleeding Battling for something you aint winning My mother never gave me love               Growin up, it was something that I craved That shit just made me tough And I know she cant be blamed She grew up the same way                                            Shes been hiding her pain everyday Its hard to love when you grew up without it You just need to learn to forget it Sorry for what im saying, im just cold-hearted                                        Believe it or not, this I never wanted Life isn’t fair, you don’t always get what you deserve, or what you want Not even a little of love to fill your heart To help heal your wounds, to end all your battles                                           All of my life Been livin in pain Wishin for the rain For brighter days To wash away All my suffering   Shit like this makes you turn to the streets Making yourself nothing but a criminal Not even having a dime in your pockets Selling your soul to the fucken devil                                                Sometimes its even to late to turn your life around Cuz you end up six ft underground People are quick to judge about someones life Without knowing about there hard times               Let me tell you something Many people come from nothing Everyone is struggling in there own way Some have chosen the wrong pathway                                  others being lucky enough to not go thru this not even a little bit so if you don’t know shit imma give you a piece of advice you better listen not gunna repeat myself twice               Don’t talk the talk unless You walk the walk Like tupac said.. Everybody's at war with different things…im at war with my own heart sometimes    All of my life Been livin in pain Wishin for the rain For brighter days To wash aways All my suffering,suffering   I have lost so many things in life Even loosing some family Its made me the person im today                             Keep pushing myself to be able to survive                              They say blood is thicker than water Cuz a bond between family should be stronger But that shit aint true Cuz they will just walk right thru you                              Stabbing you right were it hurts the most This is why I don’t trust Hoping this will change someday Why cant this just go away                     Im tired of fighting this battle Everyday it’s a struggle Trying to maintain my strength Slowing loosing my breath Keep getting deaper into the unknown Not a soul around, im all alone        filled up with so much emptiness walking away into the darkness for so long cuz that's where I belong sometimes your destiny turns out wrong