yea... as I sit back clear my mine and release.what troubles me on thus track.!!! I'm dealing with ,, self ,, iucssuse.. I can't let it get best of me ,, I'm not new ,too .life's stress or questions about ..weight.. on my shoulders ... always ,,held in as a soulja ,,, been threw many types of storms and battles and ,I sometimes I can still see misery's shadow ,try too .. take over me !!!! as I sit back with my feeling deep in side ,I realized that ,life is hard ,,, hoping to be able (strieve ..).... forward find better ways to make better days.All I want is a chance to find a better path instead of (negotiaity )in search of (wreath.) .....mama always told me ,,, pray for faith hope ,keep god first ,stay humble stay out of trouble,, be strong wake up and see everything clear life is to dear. just no life is a risk in this risky lifestyle you make ..it. look out too so many things are , evil in this world .. as I kept ,,all her words in heart ... but..no matter what I ...am keep my head up let no one steal my shine or my dreams ,, as I feel the tear drops roll down on my face ,, cuase it hurts to hear my little girl calling out for my support and hear her cry out ,ask me to bring her home all I can do is pray for hope that I can get threw my battle's of this hatless world that is struggle with ways of life ... ,i often ask myself ...is this my destiny ...so many risk that I face ,I want get beast mode.... and catch a case over worthless iussces that, got hold of me in different ways of feeling in so many different emotions but there's still a lot of opportunities that's waiting for me to,, for fill. provided to see ,light ,, I knowgotta..remain strong and hold on.,,,. no matter what comes I will figth too remain Strong ,,even if I'm fighting a alone ... I stand tall alone .. , I'msee my grow .. ,, gotta , put all the bullshit behine me and ..see the better way to better lifestyle , .. I refuse,, fall down and be a failer .. I'm push hard to work for the new dream ,, be on my guard,,, refuse to let go back to emptyness and stress ,, I'm be bless and review what's new for me to the other ,side of the grass .. make good choice's for the best to the good life in is met for me .. never look back keep going straight forward to the good life ,, be able too, smile at the way of the new life god holds for me I have been, figthing for my dreams and and my goals. best believe that I not let it all go and waste timeim..,be fine and remember what mama told me ,its all work good !!!