you ignore me then play it cordially tryna raise your status so belittle me playin games throwin dirt on my name you don't know where to aim not interested in low level fame in the background workin on my craft makin sure im gonna last never move on fast couldn't let go of my past all that bent up so I relapsed brink of collapse controlled demolition my actions vicous feeding my ego with shit thats fictitious coping with fadin away wanted that feelin to stay started smokin and drinking again losin weight to look the part again can't lie shit made me fly clouded my vision navigating through turbulence my head spinning feel like I'm winning when I'm losing slowly oxygen depleted should call out for help I need it angry bout the way I was treated so I conceded I need to be completed my actions constantly deplete me liter by liter