my life story

Ok yeah yeah mhm lets go alright yeah already got pain in my chest feeling like I'm on house arrest barely thinking cause I keep on sleeping but putting more issues to the situation got no kind of feelings cause waking up feeling ashamed for thinking main reasons in life hold my pain inside how do I feel when theres no life to see unsatisfied with anything then I'm gullible towards my feelings crying to sleep can't hardy eat feel stupid for falling for some bitchy ass nigga feel used when they ask for forgiveness knowing it like giving bread to somebody that doesn't needed for sure I show appreciation for everything but the fact of being attacked and not doing nothing hurts like a bitch but re healing from it is the tough part cause if u break yourself again it becomes permanent and more difficult to handle when next set of issues come in take ten to 15 things that comeback to mind make it hard to sleep even when I want to I can't cause the past wanna beat me to sleep I wanna sleep and not awake but it ain't time and being dead ain't a option I suffer theses feelings and take it cause even if I have to end it wouldn't be dead but a clever decision either or fight for what's ours and that we care for it love is always there when I need it just not the type I been wanting got my lines but they faded so ig being lonely is the only option till I get my shit right there be many options got my self to look after no one else it's me being like the rest even tho I'm in the outkast I'll still be myself weather they care or not it ain't a option just myself ain't doing stuff that would harm me just sleep and music is my medicine take my mind off of stress for three decades that will be a great vacation for me aye they be all sorry one day they be wanting something they can't get but I'll forgive and forget cause Jesus died for our sins taught us all a lesson that we deserve a chance we all imperfect but we are only human no matter what situation we forgive and forget we all make bad decisions but it's us move on no grudges make it better not difficult it's that simple