exhausted soul

I find myself in this dark room Where never I try to pray With this shining mirror on the wall With Blood dropping That's not me on that mirror Devil is that you9? I see  ur horns Or it's all my thoughts I use to run to the blade Rub on my wrist until I bleed To kill my pains But that was destroying my veins Fucking up my brain Devil really messed me up I sin too much I even forget to pray But I still feel God have my back But I still want to be high Damn I have to sin again I need a break from me I feel disconnected from me All these  heavy weight on me Feel like a lost soul Can't find where I belong Anxiety driving me out of me I walk like a zoombie Cause I am dead inside I was born unhappy