my entire life I have been misunderstood I have never understood How I could Or why I should just to fall again i mean when when will it became easy I mean at times it’s hella breezy other times it kinda cheezy but I know people need me I can’t get up and leave I gotta wear my heart on my sleeve I’m more happier than Christmas Eve sure all the loss makes me greive but I ain’t got time to bleed sure I smoke weed but like any human I bleed I’m sixteen but I still gotta speed I mean what do I need ok so I made a few mistakes but I still got what it takes my heart breaks I have been constantly proving and improving peoples trust and love I constantly be renewing I mean what have i been doing I had emotions brewing i was lost I know god has a plan but I am no more than a man I really have no plan I just constantly think I can I mean I ran I really had myself I have been hella fucked up since I was 12 I mean I put my heart on the shelf I know life isn’t fair but just when I’m almost there I don’t care I mean I wanna fly through the air be someone have a grandson not get shot by a handgun I don’t know the outcome I mean each challenge I overcome and my head is overrun am I anyone I mean am I everyone I just know I’m someone in life who has a fear of a knife and get on with life I mean Life has got you down the drugs and booze feelings being drown constant Bad news the only crown is 1 to lose u are down with the blues the entire town makes you choose who walks a mile in there own shoes We never got to choose which shoes we wanted We plotted our land Spotted our stand prays and hopes it pays maybe get a raise in a few days it’s just bad news We didn't choose our shoes You got pushed to the point where you have nothing to lose different views missing the cues and now u feel ur the only 1 to accuse And we try to refuse and try to defuse The pain That has infuse your brain makes you want to jump in front of a train darkness now has the reign of the brain So before you judge walk his shoes because I know this bad weather it feels like your tied on a tether but u act hard as leather but we go through it together now I’m no professer but I’ve had that feeling a lot my own cousins got shot my own freind died from the pipe being to hot another crashes and died in the lot I held my dads hand as he died and left his life another friend I held his hand after he got stabbed with a knife I was the last one to see him alive sometimes it’s hard to even survive wish I could see them again so I understand I know we all suffered but I always wondered how I recovered I guess I’m starting to discover and your a lot tougher your like no other now I’m ready to live and thrive and survive cause when I arrive I am gonna drive and strive cause my life Darkness can no longer deprive I promise I got the harness I’m not heartless regardless Its my subconscious yeah pains accomplice and I ain’t no fucking novice I’m alive so off fucking cliff it can dive yeah sorry I am just livin life One step at a time