Not Wanted

I don't want to go where I'm not wanted and I dont want to be used and taken for granted sometimes they're good sometimes i hate the cards I've been handed I don't belong, I'm like an alien who has landed im a Sagittarius so I'm very candid not gonna sugar coat shit I'll leave you stranded I'd like to think that I have the upper hand did I do what was asked of me, what was demanded? im tired of being a pawn in a game gotta reshuffle my cards and deal them out I feel so numb I feel like I want to scream and shout I guess I'm probably too old to pout or feel sorry for myself go put my heart on a shelf who needs feelings when I have the logic I know I should be in wise mind always but instead I just walk around in a daze not good enough for anyone to earn their praise however music gave me something my soul craves music pours into my body electricity like I've been tazed I don't want to go where I'm not wanted if im not welcome then why show up then im always the tag along no one would invite directly life is just a big test and I dont want to do it incorrectly I want to be part of a family and not a distant cousin no one likes I should be fly like a kite I go the distance like mountain bikes and im determined ill put up a fight