ex addict

so much pain in this soul of mine, alot of the times I hurt but didn't say shit, I did drugs to cover up the pain, but that only lasted hours then hours turned to days, I was addicted to the drug I felt like a slave, I was digging my own grave by smoking that crystal, but at the time I didn't care, all I wanted was that high, to numb me, this was the life I didn't want, cause I started noticing the snakes, the fakes, only there when you have that shit, so I tried to leave that life only to return it was crazy, looking in the mirror but not recognizing who the man was staring back, at that point I knew I had to change, so when I finally did, it was the biggest relief I've ever felt, this is the story of an ex addict this is a story of an ex addict, drugs used to run me, an used to lay havoc, I did drugs everyday it was my habit now im 10 years clean damn it feels lavish. after thinking I had my addiction beat, it came back and attacked me, the relapse made me feel worthless, so I did the poor me cause I didn't feel important, but that didn't affect nobody but me, I wanted to die in the worst way, cause it was to hard for me to live day by day, but that was all in my head, but no one told me that, I learned on my own it took me over 10 relapses before I realized that I was only human, and that I only make mistakes, so I did what I thought was impossible, finally kicked it man I felt lifted. this is a story of an ex addict, drugs used to run me, an used to lay havoc, I did drugs everyday it was my habit now im 10 years clean damn it feels lavish.